The Long and Winding Road
"Every ounce of my being is grateful for this glorious morning. I awoke to hear the birds singing their beautiful music, witnessed the sun rays peeking through the rustling trees, and felt the warm summer breeze on my skin as it waft through the open window. My cup runneth over. Sometimes we take every day simplicities for granted. Thanks be to God for today's gift."--Rev Bev'ism
I have so much to be thankful for. A loving family and friends, a beautiful home, and so much more.
But for the last few weeks, I feel like my life is in limbo. For some reason, I just am not catching a break.
In a nutshell--since my last blog---I had finished another round of Rituxan, had received a positive report from the oncologist and was ready to begin a relaxing summer while our son was attending a six week leadership training camp out of state.
After my last chemotherapy treatment in June, it took several weeks for the drug to "do its magic," but it actually had started!!! For the first time in years, I was virtually pain free. It was as if I was no longer being held captive by the that horrible four letter word. P-A-I-N.
Then, in an instant, I was inflicted with another ailment that has literally knocked the crap out of me! My recurring gastro problems have totally taken over my life. So much so...that I cannot eat normally and I am always concerned what will happen when I leave the house.
Now, the doctor part of me knows that I cannot let fear overtake my life. I also know I need to eat in order to heal fully. But it is impossible. I have even tried not to eat...and it just doesn't make a difference.
On top of that, allergy season has hit Long Island head on...and guess who has it bad for the first time in years? Yep...moi!
Despite it all, I have tried to keep busy and not dwell on the ailments. Don't get me wrong...there are days that I just lie in bed and do nothing. I am entitled to do that...it is my right. But I have been making a grand effort to not avoid
"Instead of complaining about things you cannot control, be thankful that you have the ability to make a personal choice to change those things you can."--Rev Bev'ism
Graduation is right around the corner...and it is the first airplane ride I will be taking since my diagnosis.
Am I scared? You bet...but not of flying. I am afraid of not feeling well. But just knowing that I am attending my doctoral graduation is motivation enough. I have worked too hard for so many years.
In my mind, I pictured myself walking down the aisle with my cap and doctoral gown on...tears in my eyes...proud as could be. And it is almost here.
But first I must get through a lovely colonscopy this week...and as the specialist says...she is taking lots of biopsies along the way. Great! NOT! Hopefully she will find out what is going on and my life can get back on track. It just has to!
Despite the roadblocks, we did enjoy the summer. Our strawberry crop was amazing this year. And our veggies are doing well despite the high heat this summer.We are still harvesting cucumbers, corn, tomatoes, eggplant, broccoli and several herbs.
This was a summer of concerts/live music...my passion. We finally made it to Jones Beach and saw Chicago and the Doobie Brothers. It was amazing. Especially when the two groups got together on stage for the finale. Wow!!! The night on the water was picture perfect!
Our next live show was at The Boulton Center, where we got to see one of my all time favorite 70's groups: Firefall. Three members of the band, Steve Weinmaster, Jock Bartley and Bill Hopkins, performed an acoustic concert that was truly moving. Three voices, in perfect harmony, is something that today's music is lacking.
They had a meet 'n greet after the show, and I must say...these guys are three of the sweetest human beings you will ever meet! They performed ALL of their hits, including "You Are The Woman," "Just Remember I Love You" and "Livin' Ain't Livin."Steve Weinmaster, Dr. Bev, Jock Bartley and Bill Hopkins
On a very warm evening, we ventured to NYC to board the Smooth Jazz Cruise entitled Guitars and Saxes. For any jazz music fan out there...this was truly a treat.Lower Manhattan...simply breathtaking!
Jazz greats Jeff Golub, Peter White, Gerald Albright and Kirk Whalum performed to a sold out crowd, as we cruised around lower Manhattan. With camera in hand, I worked my way to the front and sat right in front of Peter White and shot tons of photos.Many of you know that I have been a huge fan of jazz guitarist Peter White for many, many years, and I have attended many of his concerts. This past year he reached out to me on Facebook after he found this blog, and we have kept in touch ever since.Peter White...making his guitar sing like an angel!
After the show, I walked downstairs to the meet 'n greet to ask Peter to sign a photo that I brought with me. When I said, "Hi, I'm Beverly from Facebook," he said..."You mean the doctor...Dr. Bev?" I started to cry and we gave each other a huge hug and kiss. It is a night I will NEVER, EVER forget. I love you Peter!Peter White and Dr. Bev
A few days later, Peter Noone and the Hermans Hermits gave a free concert on the water at Tanner Park in Copiague. It was wonderful hearing the oldies but goodies including 'There's A Kind of Hush' and 'Henry viii.' They just don't write them like that any more!Peter Noone
In the middle of everything this summer, our son turned 17!
My sweet, 92 year old great Aunt Bert had a fall several weeks ago, and is recuperating in a rehab facility in NJ. Her positive outlook and fighting spirit is unlike anything I have ever experienced.
On a final note...I am honored to announce that this very blog, "My Life With Mixed Connective Tissue Disease," was the runner up in the 2010 Best Long Island Blog Contest.
Thanks to everyone that voted for me...for you are the reason I continue to write!
God bless each and every one of you.