Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Positive Living

As I stare out my office window watching a lone seagull soar aimlessly in the sky, I feel truly blessed. Despite all the negative things that have happened in the last few years, God has been truly good to me.

A person must put things into perspective. Don't dwell on the negative, but learn from all the wonderful things this world has to offer.

View life as if you were a visitor experiencing the wonders of life on this earth for the very first time.

Like a new mother holding her newborn baby in her arms right after the blessed event. Or watching a tiny puppy running through a fresh blanket of fallen snow in the park. Or that first kiss between lovers when they know they found "the one."

Wake up each day, ready to start anew! Don't keep dwelling on the negative, continually asking why me?

Instead, be thankful for what you have. A brand new day, good friends, a loving family. And most importantly, God's love.

You lose nothing by living this way. But the gains are immeasureable!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Sunshine Brings Smiles Today!

What a beautiful day! It's 40 degrees outside, and the sun is shining bright. Despite the temperature, I took a drive out east to shop and walk around.
I had to buy a Giants sweatshirt to wear when I watch the Super Bowl on February 3rd. The one I own has their outdated logo, and I wanted a new one.
We (my NY Giants) have a good chance of winning it all this year, despite the odds. I think it is about time that New York whips New England once and for all, for the title!
On another topic, I am still utterly exhausted. No matter what I do, I can't seem to shake it. I have an appointment at the lab this Friday to check out my blood levels for the past month. I hope and pray they are still okay, and that this exhaustion is just part of the healing process.
Staying out until 4 in the morning this past weekend didn't help, I guess! Our gig at The Court House was fantastic, and I think my voice was better than it has been in a very long time.
We all went to a local diner after the show and I didn't get to sleep until 5! And then we went to a friend's house for an early dinner on Sunday...so it was a busy weekend.
Last night, Sally and I went to the catering hall to finalize the menu for our affair. We got the names of two bakeries so we can select our cake. I have to call them and meet with the bakers and decide on a design. We want to it match our cake topper that we had personally designed for the occasion.
The invitations were mailed out yesterday at the post office, so the clock is now officially ticking! Let's just hope our gowns come in on time, and that everything continues on this wonderful path forward.
I am so in love. I have never been as happy or as much at peace as I am at this moment in time. Despite the negative energy or sadness around, I remain positive and thankful for all that I have.

A much happier, spiritually healthier & content me!

Hang on tight world...full speed ahead!!!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

The Days Are Flying By!

Not feeling well the last two days. Kind of hard to describe. I have an ache in my neck and it radiates to my right ear.

I saw my primary doc today and he seemed puzzled. He said that my ears are pristine, but that my lymph nodes are swollen. Dr. Cipolla said it is viral and that I should give it a week. If I don't feel better, come on back to his office.

Now, what bothers me, is that is the side of my face where I had the new crown put in last week. But why would the pain come from my neck? It would seem that if it were coming from my mouth, that the pain would start up there and radiate down. I guess I will sit tight for a few days.

This past Sunday was very nice. Mom drove out earlier in the day, and then my brother Scott came out with his boys. We finally got to celebrate the holidays together. Better late than never!

While Mom visited for a few days, we went shopping for a "Mother of the Bride" gown. She insisted that she was only going to look, and then when she gets back to New Jersey, she'd go shopping with her friends and really look. Then once she found something, I'd drive out and see it before she made a final decision.

Well, guess what? The third dress she tried on was a keeper. She looked absolutely beautiful in a long, lacey black gown. One more thing accomplished.

We actually received a call from Chateau La Mer last night to schedule a meeting to finalize the menu. I cannot believe our "big day" is less than 3 months away! OMG!

Last week we had our pre-wedding photos taken, and they came out beautiful. It was hard to choose just one! We were really lucky to have such a mild day with temps in the 50s, to go out and have a photo shoot, in the middle of January!

The happy couple!

The days are flying by. Life really is too short! I must never put limitations on myself, and live each day to the fullest. Especially since I will be turning the big "50" very soon!

I no longer fear the future...despite having a chronic disease. God has blessed me with a loving family and wonderful friends. The love of my life and I will be making a lifetime commitment to each other in April, and the doctors are working with me to beat the odds.

"Nothing can stand before me when God stands with me."

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

A Good Day!

Received wonderful news today. Dr. Rumore's nurse, Andrea, called me this afternoon to say my latest blood results looked great. Whew...that is a relief!

Been really, really tired lately. Actually...I am exhausted. But I keep on chugging along. We had a full weekend, including the premiere of the "L Word" at Cinema Arts Centre in Huntington. It has turned into an annual event nationwide, and approximately 500 gay women gathered to watch the first episode of the fifth season.

After the show, half of the women drove over to Baang in Woodbury for a party. It was a lot of fun, with all proceeds going to HRC, The Human Rights Campaign. (http://www.hrc.org/) Lots of dancing, drinking, and mingling. Good vibes all around!

Yesterday began with a very interesting phone message from "my" ING representative. Remember my blog from a few weeks ago when I got so upset by this woman's phone call? She had said that I needed to go back to work, despite my health and it was up to me, not my doctors to make that decision?

Well, she apologized! Yes...APOLOGIZED!! She said she didn't mean to upset me and that she shouldn't have said those things to me! She is closing her files on me for now because I do not qualify to work at any occupation at this time due to my health status. No shit, shirlock!

Since the weather was unseasonably mild, Goldie and I met my friend Julie (and her golden Taylor) at Gardiner Park. She encouraged me to let Goldie off her leash, and it was fantastic. Overall, Goldie did very well on our one hour walking adventure through the park. But those few times she lagged behind, Taylor went right over to her, gave a loud bark, and the two trotted happily together down the trail.

I fell asleep for two hours after that hike...whew, was I beat! Then last evening, Sally and I met some people for dinner at Honu's in Huntington for our friend Barbara's birthday. What an interesting dining experience.

The atmosphere was very chic and sophisticated. And the menu extremely different. There were no appetizers and entrees, per se. Everything was served on small plates, and everyone at our table shared a taste. I think we ordered each and every dish on the menu between the fifteen of us. We had a great time!

This morning I made a conscious decision to walk on the treadmill and try to lift some light weights on the machine. I have to work on gaining my strength, a little at a time. And since I received the great news that my bloodwork is status quo, I must continue to work at it.

Each day affords us the opportunity to start anew. Take a chance, and go for it with every part of your being. I am! And so should you.

No more excuses!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Think Positive!

Happy New Year!

I want to thank you all so very much, from the bottom of my heart, for all of the wonderful personal emails and comments I received in the last few days about this blog. I always said...if I touch just one person with my words, it has been all worthwhile!

Through all of the difficult times I have experienced in the last few years, I now understand that these hard periods of my life were really the outer crusts of change that had to take place for the greater good in my life. In Metaphysical Science, I am learning to "handle" negativity and ultimately, it will produce positive results.

It is important to understand that we cannot eliminate negativity totally from our lives. However, we must learn how to handle it! If something negative happens, one must not allow oneself to continue the negativity. Take time to only think positively and find one's innermost spiritual nature.

To handle difficult situations or negativity in your life, you must follow these guidelines:
  • Don't call up your friends or family and tell them what a difficult time your are having. Otherwise negativity can and will reflect back on you. However, it is important to find one confidant in your life who has a positive outlook on life.
  • Don't blame yourself, someone else or God for your failure.
  • Be open and aware to new ideas that may enter your mind during this difficult time. If you open your mind, the answers will come to you.
  • Enjoy life each and every day, despite the difficult times you are experiencing. Life will love you back!

Through the practice of meditation, I hope to enter a wonderful new way of living...to become a better person spiritually, psychologically and physically.

And most importantly, improve my health status by connecting deeper with God's energy...which is the natural healing energy of the body!